5 years ago

5 years ago I honestly had no idea how much life would change. And not so much the going to the store, or going out to dinner, but how weird it would feel to do those things without our 3rd, and of course now 4th and 5th wheel Justin and I dove into parenthood head first and so far are still afloat. Our oldest daughter Renae turns 5 today. I remember giving birth to her like it was yesterday.  I found out just how strong a person I am and that if I put my mind to it I can do anything. and yes I am talking about pushing a 6 lb 3 oz 19 inch long human being out of my wooha with NO epi. (yes go ahead and gasp and say I am crazy cause I am cimh) It started when I had a conversation with my mother in-law who told me she did it some 25 years earlier with Justin. Well I got to thinking if she can do it then why can’t I. I received a lot of negative feed back about my decision to try Epi free. and the more you can’t or why would you do that just made me even more determined. I also began reading more about Epiderals and the possible risks  and decided if I could avoid the risk of constant back pain or having to have it done twice like my ex sister in-law did cause it only worked on half of her body I thought why not. 

Well with my husband by my side from the very start and my mom and Jeana joining us a little later I survived all 10 CM with a little help from some stadol in my IV and it was time to push. (now here is the part you might want to skip TMI) well there is no way to describe the pain other then you feel like you downstairs is on fire and your insides are ripping out. After about 40 mins of pushing Renae ripped her way out and was born at 3:40. They threw this slimy nasty covered baby on me and I was already so much in love. A few stitches later for mommy and a bath and check up for Renae and we were ready to start being a family of 3. 

Renae is such a smart, sweet, funny, back talking, pain in my butt of a little girl but I am so proud of her and couldn’t ask for a more perfect match for me. I love watching her in tumbling and she amazes me all the time with how smart she is. She loves running with her daddy and is now getting into soccer. Can't believe it has already been 5 years since the day she was born. Children truly are a gift from God and it is amazing how much your heart will grow with each child.  I will wait till a later blog to go into the details of actually brining your first child home from the hospital, it to is WAY different then what you can ever imagine. Another day and time :) 

Happy birthday my big girl!!!